You can do and pray for the best But, don’t think too much I can or can’t be yours Depends on how destiny unites us I can sense you worries from afar But, I can’t tell you more than I know If He still gives you time, let’s be friend If He gives you the last call, then it’s the best for you
Please, be kind to yourself Stop looking for me Once or twice is okay Maybe you miss me Or just want to take a lesson But, don’t forget to leave soon Cause I’m no longer your companion Don’t you dare to bring me to your today and tomorrow If you don’t let me go, then I’ll be your burden
Have you ever thought why I blocked your number? I hope you’ll find the answer and stop calling or texting But, you don’t get it I’m frustrated
Guess who’s the real simp? Who can’t move on? I used to think that it was me I asked myself: “was it feeling or a well? how could it be so deep?”
I want to love you for one more time For the sake of a reason to wake up every morning Or why I should dress up and smile more But, I realized that you look like my mistakes that I don’t want to repeat
To whom should I sell this pain? Maybe I could get a healing as an exchange But, no one wants to buy Although I gave the lowest price Still no one wants They said, “Don’t you know that we have the same pain as yours? We have too much” (while pointing at their chest)
I stopped selling or offering my pain I’ll keep it, here and there Based on its timeline And in a place where it should be : the cemetery that I built in my mind
My dear, you know that sky isn’t always blue rain doesn’t always bring the rainbow and wind can turn into the tornado but, you’re always able to go through
My dear, there’s no perfect past so is the present and future As long as you did your best failure shouldn’t be your regret
My dear, I’m sorry for my mistreatment I’m sorry for every emotion I bottled up All I want was just hold back my tears so no one knew that I’ve cried
My dear, whoever hurt or left any scars let them pay the debts Pity on them who threw a gem for a gravel You deserve the best Better than they ever gave
They say I’m lonely going alone everywhere without group of peers or a man whom I date with
They took pity on me thinking that my life is so unlucky for not having friends or someone who stands by my side
Yeah, please, keep talking about that shit keep your shallow thinking to yourself cause we’re so unwell trained to see what unseen an amateur to dive in to the meaning
Call me a lone wolf if you want a member who’s outcasted of the pack cause of her flaws which is not cool enough to stay in, even be their shadows
I’m a lone wolf who defeat the loneliness alone who reject to be the shadow who won’t bow down to any expectation
October 14th, 2021-time when I feel the most powerful to make my day
How many times do you have to put a smile when the words are just sweetener on the lip tip No one knows about your heart, which is like a battle field where the memories are vulnerable in front of grudges
Nothing is more toxic than a fake smile while mumbling of bad things undetected and not tasted just left a never ending chaos
If “sorry” doesn’t ever come, which one should be there first between regret and forgiveness?