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Today, I can’t talk Doesn’t mean I lose my words in arranging my stories just a piece of wound I can’t tell appearing on the surface making a new scars Oh, this blood! dripping on the paper that I used to write a poem tonight
Yogyakarta, July 1st, 2020-06.09 p.m.
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Would you like to explain every second you need to fall in love, before your first confession? Cause it stated in your eyes I couldn’t stare I was frozen
Let me call your name, even I whisper to the wind, on the edge of the cliff. I’ll repeat, then memorize
Let me hear your heart beat as if it’s the most pleasing music that I could play all day
We’re getting closer to the same fateo after y ur long waiting before I could realize have I ever dreamed of it?
Tell me how should I write our names on the same page that nobody can tear, erase or change Could I?
Yogyakarta, June 29th, 2020-07.24 a.m.
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Don’t tell a lie!
Everyone knows, the scratched truth you told an angelic face you showed how you act like a gentleman
Don’t tell a lie!
Everyone knows, what you hide behind your mask a devil smile, a devil’s horn when you thought that you’re successful in trapping an innocent soul
Take off your cloak
Before it wraps you too tight and you won’t be able to breathe Take off your crown Before it sticks too tight and you’ll find it difficult to make your head up and straight
Your mask, your cloak, your crown Why do you have to remind me of my nightmare?
Yogyakarta, May 1st, 2020-03.23 p.m.
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“If this can no longer resonate, no longer make my heart vibrate Then like this may be how I die my first death But, if that moment’s right now, right now…” -BTS on Black Swan-
Is there anything scarier than the death itself?
Only if you think that the death is scary This soul is still in my body Returned when I woke up “The new day is coming your way”
“How can you continue your journey without compass?” “Tell me your destination” “Tell me what you want” Your choice, your reasons of all the options
Why are you just silent?
Why do you stare blankly? My heart pulse almost stop Leaving me in a shock Imagining of the worst scenario Later, I realize that you’re not sinking in a trance Someone, please tell me that I don’t talk to a living corpse
Yogyakarta, April 9th, 2020-09.13 a.m.
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“Can you imagine a world without voice?”
I’m not going to tell you about how it feels when being locked in a dark room alone
Everyone knows. Although some of them are brave enough. Some people can’t stay still, dying of fear.
Even you shut my mouth or cut my throat, the truth is unveiled.
An unspoken one, mystery, whatever it says.
Do we need an explanation?
If I have to tell you everything, you won’t be able to know the meaning of my gaze.
Then my love won’t be the same. And my words are nothing.
Till you let me to speak through my soul
Yogyakarta, April 7th, 2020-01.12 p.m.
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In this empty room,
missing every routine
hoping for the day of execution
the day that you’ve always been waiting for
If there were court of boredom, would you like to sue him for murder accusation or ease the lawsuit?
Cause why didn’t you avoid him to enter your room?
Why didn’t you fight him back?
Instead of do nothing
Yogyakarta, April 5th, 2020-07.42 p.m.
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A loud voice you can’t hear Only me and my ears at 3 a.m. nobody’s around me just night, silence and my imagination
An honest talk “Yeah, I’m the real definition of imperfection” Don’t expect anything if you’re afraid of being hurt and I’ll blame myself for every mistakes I’ve done to you
At 3 a.m. when you’re still dreaming under your blanket I had a debate in my head She gave me a death glare gave me pressure
“Did I do a crime?”
Yogyakarta, February 5th, 2020-08.04 p.m.
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Shout out that you’re okay No worries No need to sorry Raise your voice from the ground Let’s make some noise
Although the world can’t accept It doesn’t matter for you Silence runs through your blood even in your (broken) soul speaks louder to you when nobody can respect the way you do
Yogyakarta, January 19th, 2020-11.08 a.m.
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Silence means “tired” Silence means “take a rest” Silence means “enough” Silence means “wandering in thought” Silence means “lost in imagination” Silence means anything
Silence doesn’t need your judgement Cause it’ll be missed by its worshiper Silence doesn’t need your interpretation Cause it interprets everything better than you think
Yogyakarta, January 12th, 2020-05.28 a.m.
Is it the same as alone? loneliness? mourn?
Is it a negative sign?
Why do you keep asking if my eyes said everything?
Yogyakarta, Januari 7th, 2020