What is loyality for? If I have to sacrifice my health (both physically and mentally).
What is loyality for? If it makes me “far away” from my family and friends. (Remember, I use ” ” on the word far away).
What is loyality for? If I have to sacrifice my time to rest (my body has its limit. So, if my body is tired, it means I need to take a rest. Honestly, I need to understand what my body wants from me).
What is loyality for? If it makes me “far away” from God? (I need my time to pray regularly)
Sorry, if I’m so selfish. But, I can turn to be selfish when I’m too exhausted of everything or everyone around me.
My head feels heavier Is it gain some weigh? Or do I carry too much numbers? A stack of data Analyze and Forecasr Deadline and presentation
Higher pressure Suddenly everyone gets fussy Top manager give pressure to middle manager Middle manager give pressure to supervisor Supervisor give pressure to the staffs Then, who’s the staff putting pressure on?
I nag to myself, “why are you so dumb and weak?” I push her to the edge She doesn’t accept it I’m angry
So, should I press myself to reach a maximum point?
The workplace or office is full of adults from different background, knowledge, skill, experience and personality. Actually, as an adult, they can think and act like adult. Because they’re adults, they should understand the reponsibilty. Adults should know how to distinguish between right and wrong. Their mindset has built up, so, they can take an action and make their own decision.
But, in reality, I always find people (both of employees and bosses) who do not understand their responsibilities, unable to respect others (treated others like robot or machine, not human), put forward their own egos etc.
I have had a boss in my previous workplace that do not understand the rules and procedures. She never wanted to be blamed even though what she actually did was wrong. She’d rather trust the flatterers than those who tell the truth and show her the fact.
And you know, she fired 2 employees from production division and 1 accounting SPV. What surprised me was that the reason for their dismissal wasn’t a logical cause. Not long after they fired, one of my coworker in the same division with me, resigned cause she couldn’t deal with the boss attitude anymore.
When I wanted to resign, the company was looking for my successor. The company asked me to taught her anything that she’d do as her job desc.
After 3 days I accompanied her, I tried to let go of my assistance. And the next day I was forced to come to the office after she had told me that she had been intimidated by the boss. I remembered that she told me while crying back then. Finally, she only worked in the company for 1 week then decided to left.
The workplace should be an arena for healthy competition and collaboration. Not a battlefield between parties who have ‘certain interests’. Not a place for character assassination.
The adult world should not be too much drama. But, in reality, there’re many people who love to create ‘the office dramas’. And I really hate this situation. That’s why I always avoid it. I don’t care if they consider me as indifferent, cold, apathetic and so on. Well, I also don’t like and have no time for those kind of dramas.
Have a great day, everyone! Don’t forget to be happy
I’m afraid that the same nightmare will haunt me again I was really tortured Their fake smile Their evil laugh Their sharp tounge Their poisonous words Their intimidating glare Broke me into pieces
I’m afraid of meeting another hypocrites She’s an angel in front of her allies She’s an hero in front of her boss But, she’s a queen of devil in front of me So, should I give you a standing applause? Ah, sorry, ma’am, I mean you deserve an Oscar!
I’m afraid of being imprisoned My body My heart My soul My energy My creativity My freedom My time My life Am I too greedy?
I’m afraid of being over controlled I’m not robot I’m not machine I’m not an object I’m me, myself and I! Noted!
I’m afraid of meeting mature people who have black heart who said A in the morning, B in the afternoon and C in the evening who’re so different between what they said and what’s hidden inside who have no tolerance yet close-minded who doesn’t know how to treat others like human So, what kind of devil human are they?
Yogyakarta, September 18th, 2019-06.32 p.m. -office drama is so sickening-