In her head, movie-liked scenes were played with a speed that made her out of breath. Then, a background turned into an unknown place and I found a girl chased something like her own shadow. But, the shadow ran too fast till a girl fall and screamed with the lowest voice I’ve ever heard
*) Lucid (adj.) :1. clearly expressed; easy to understand 2. clear in one’s mind; in control of one’s thoughts
Why do I have to put a smile,if all I want is crying? I won’t run out of tears cause I keep it for a reason that you might know or not except I sell it for the sake of attention
I regret and thankful of what you’ve created I hate and love every footstep you’ve left Never disappeared even though dry and wet months always change Is forgetting really necessary?
My memory isn’t good enough to memorize every single A to Z But, you could force me to remember those pains with every detail and piece of your act You taught me to forgive to make a peace and accept the fact that I should raise the white flag so you could attack But, I won’t For sure
*) Note : I wrote this poem to remembering my best friend who passed away in the beginning of June 2020. Actually, today is her birthday. Since I miss her a lot, but can’t congratulate her anymore, I decided to write this poem.
Boiling anger heated in the heart whether by an injured ego or just a spark of jealousy Not only once and not the first time “How manytimesdoyouhavetoseta fireandthrowmeto yourflames, tillI turn into ashes?“
ShouldI start my morning with a cup ofblackcoffeethatlostitssmell, beforeI seta fireto burn the fog blanket, thatwrapmybodywithcoldness?
Sleeping pills can’t beat me no matter how much I can take everyday a nightmare becomes too real like I watch it on TV I try to press pause, skip or stop button on a remote control that I hold now in my hand
But, I’m trembling A remote control is slipped of my grip Take it! Before a monster steal it and control my steps to the edge of the hell