Poem | What If

photo by Kristin Vogt from pexels

What’s fairytale?
What’s romance?
I’m in love
and hate to admit
that it might kill me

I fall to stand up
even I try to find a reason to give up
almost make an excuse to suicide

I sleep to wake up
erasing my burden
and escaping from pain

But, this pain doesn’t allow me to sleep
So, I take a pen, think and write,
“What if I never wake up from my bed?”

Yogyakarta, August 16th, 2020-during a heavy rain