ShouldI start my morning with a cup ofblackcoffeethatlostitssmell, beforeI seta fireto burn the fog blanket, thatwrapmybodywithcoldness?
Sleeping pills can’t beat me no matter how much I can take everyday a nightmare becomes too real like I watch it on TV I try to press pause, skip or stop button on a remote control that I hold now in my hand
But, I’m trembling A remote control is slipped of my grip Take it! Before a monster steal it and control my steps to the edge of the hell
I’m tired of this warning that always be doctrine to steal ‘me’ from myself
In the name of safety, modesty or men’s authority the laws told me to bow 90 degree in front of Your Majesty to protect my dignity
Cause I have no place to stay Heaven is only for a lovely lady who doen’t mind to trade her choice becoming a slave under your feet so you can’t be dethroned
But, I’m too rebel Not a good girl who you can handle So, you have to be with an angel Cause I’ll back to the hell except I can win over this battle
Yogyakarta, July 14th, 2020-08.43 a.m.
*) Note : A word ‘pledoi’ comes from Dutch, ‘pleidooi’, which means defense. In law field, pledoi is a term that refers to the last attempt of the defendant or attorney to defend the client’s rights, defend the truth he believes in, according to the evidences that revealed in the court.
Today, I can’t talk Doesn’t mean I lose my words in arranging my stories just a piece of wound I can’t tell appearing on the surface making a new scars Oh, this blood! dripping on the paper that I used to write a poem tonight